Diary of a female muslim octopus....this is just the beginning.

Well here I am, hello to those who come across my blog.

I am a 27 yr old woman who is a mother, wife, carer and probation officer. I try and try to be the best I can be on a daily basis but life throws things at you and most of the time you dont expect them to be chucked your way. I am also most importantly a muslimah (alhamdullillah).

I have just had my second child (praise Allah) and had been finding things difficult. I am also trying to get used to being a co-wife. I am the 'first wife' and am experiencing a rollercoaster of emotions....part of me loves him another part wants me to go all Lorraina Bobbit on his ass!!!lol. I am trying to perceive the challenges I face as opportunities given to me by Allah to be a good person and to rectify my wrongs but it often feels as though I throw these opportunities away as I often become impatient, angry and bitter....i have never claimed to be a saint, I am but a human being, but I want to be the best I can be.

These blogs are going to be about me (mainly moaning) but the struggles I go through having to deal with conflicting emotions which arise from the madness that happens in my life; from having to deal with my mother (who has just been diagnosed with Alzheimers and who is displaying some strange-often funny-behaviours) to having to deal with my husband who has decided only after 4 years of marriage to marry another woman who resides in Gambia!!!-DONT ASK!!

Right now im just trying to hold onto my sanity for the sake of my children and my mum. I also dnt want to let Allah down and I want to prove to Him that I am worthy of all the positive things He has blessed me with.

Welcome to the journey of my crazy life.....